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| 02:39pm 06/02/2006 |
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mood:  frustrated music: Tyler Hilton: Glad
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I feel like such a bad person. With all the hipe with the superbowl XL and planning my little party, I totaly forgot one of the most important dates... Yesterday was the birthday of my brother. hahah right about now my brother the greatest man and my hero would be one year closer to an old fart!
Feb. 5th, 2006 = Happy Birthday Jason!!!
#29... Love you boy you still remain in my heart! |
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| Jason come back! |
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| 11:21pm 24/01/2006 |
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mood:  sad music: Want to be with you Mary J Bleige
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The words to the hardcore songs now have meaning. I understand why the metephors have to be so harsh. Its to get there damn point across. I also learned why i miss my brother so much. All my life i had wanted a brother... to replace mine. i knew that could never happen but heck give it a try. As i sit here now and think to myself There is no changing he is gone and there is not a time where i want him the most.
I have always been jellouse of the relationship that my sisters have had i never could realize why i never would fit in. I always wanted to go places whith them but they would sneak off without me. I now understand why i miss my brother so much. Its becasue i woundering if i ever could have a relationship with him as my sisters have with eachother. They have so much in common well what if he had simalar things with me. Then we would both Have some1 we could go off to the store with. I wounder what kind of person he would be. was he exciting and fun like me.
After all the things that are going on in my life it took me until now to figure this out. Im always jellouse of my sisters because i want my brother to be like me but that cant happen. life is full of mysteries to be solved. It takes a whole lifetime to answer them! |
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| 02:31pm 30/11/2005 |
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So i havnt written in my live journal in forever... so i thought i would just leave a little comment... lol
I have been doing fine.. im going through physical therepy now and pretty soon i might be having surgery,...o well life goes on and its not a bad one ... lol
School is going ok... Im working hard to get my grades up but not doing that hott lol.. I have all 4 As (including 1 a+ thank you lol) and 1 B and oops i got 1 D+ in my trig class... its a butt very hard... if i could get another teacher ... oh i so would lol.. its kewl
My holiday was amazing... i hung out with my boy... He went out to the movies with my family on thanksgiving... ohhh it was a blast... My sister came home and her bf came over and we had like one big fiesta... lol Party... hahah well that is about it... Not a lot has changed, only a little by little! lol Im outy! |
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| My body is giving out |
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| 09:32pm 17/10/2005 |
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music: Chris Brown , Run it
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Only me.... I freaking swear!
My body is defective... Ok so i have been battling this problem with my arm for about 2 years now... i have no idea what im going to do... so i finally go to the doctor again to get a check up so i can go see a new doctor... When i was showing my doctor how i can pop my arm out she had this very shocked look on her face.. She tod me once again im going to most likely going to have another surgery on my arm this time.... I swear only happens to me, this stuff does. I dont know how to react.. if i should cry or if i should just suck it up. im confused and tired and i have almost no strength left.
But i must say I took my flu shot like a man!!! and i got a pimp band aid! |
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| life... |
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| 10:57pm 29/09/2005 |
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mood: depressed
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Isnt it weird how life works.. i mean how god uses his power for stange things... why does life have to go bad for me and my family so often...
So i dont know what to let go to first
the not having a good float.. or anything to pull it
or finding out a really close friend of mine has cancer...
i thought life was all about living the life but in reality its about surviving life...All the things that made up this homecomming was pain and stress... and now to add to that sorrow... if i can live through one more im sure i put a new meaning to Life...
i have had my fair share of catastrophies... from megga surgery to have my brother die... to plan just having my family loose their job. So much has gone wrong in my life and I dont want to sorrow anymore. I want to free my mind... and survive life.
I will always pray for u!!! Good luck
JJ and denny RIP... |
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| Party!!! |
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| 02:08am 27/08/2005 |
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mood:  anxious music: 1 by 1, 2 by 2
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Hey yall
Im having a little party/bonfire for my bday .. its this sat aug 27th @ 7:00 be there be square... any questions call me... every1s invited!!! |
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| I understand but i dont |
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| 12:42am 23/08/2005 |
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mood: aggravated
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Things in my life have been crazy... I met a kid... he was super sweet.. WE had fun and thats what life is was... i dont understand y people dont understand that.. yes it may be your friend.. but if we both want to have fun y would it matter.. Im sooo sorry if i hurt you in any way. but i honestly dont understand y im getting punished for growing up and learnign on my own... u used to say that he was bad for me becasue he was a player.. I want to learn for myself ( that is the only reason y u said i couldnt.. never becasue he was a friend) so now when i go out have fun and learn and explore im the one that has a problem... dont get me wrong i am very sry to whom.. i have hurt.... but if you could write the truth for once would be great... dont say it was a friend or anything just flat out say it... i wanna know y u hate me and y u hate what i did.. I want to live my life like a person not like the person who has some1 on her shoulder at all times saying i cant do something.. so please help me understand what i did wrong...
SO im just going to sit here and cry while i wait... because now you got my sister mad at me casue i dont understand... |
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| Another bad day |
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| 10:21pm 06/08/2005 |
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mood: aggravated music: All American Rejects
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So once again.. the only alone time i have with both my parents i get the... "Cristy you are a faliure to life"... I swear i never know how to feel...I havnt cried in a long time but this just put me over the edge... I dont try in school i didnt try on the ACT.. .im not going to make it in college... boy my life is awsome... My parents tell me that they are just pushing me harder to become more but you know all this has nothing to do with becoming better.. it really means ur a failure in my eyes alls you want is money...
God im pissed and i dont know how to react... i just end up screaming and getting yelled at back.. of boy my life is perfect... |
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| senior pix |
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| 06:08pm 19/07/2005 |
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I am soo emotionaly drained..
I got my proof back today from my pics... I hate them... They r nothing like i exspected... I look terrible... I know i can look better then that... and i get 20 shots and out of that 20 i got 5 backgrounds the rest r of my head.... Y would i pass my head out to my friends and all the ones i like my face has a double chin... I hate my life im so tired of this... i just want to go on vaca and have fun.. no drama.. just relax.... I wanna scream |
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| Maryland!!! |
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| 11:08pm 05/07/2005 |
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mood: anxious music: Dont wan to be ur romeo
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Bye Biatches...
Im off to maryland... Im sooo scurred!!! |
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| answer this! |
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| 11:17pm 01/07/2005 |
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mood:  creative music: Dont Cha
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Current
• time: 11:18pm
• outfit: capris and a brown tube top... Very cute
• hairstyle: pulled up
• jewelry: rings
• underwear: nope... hahah swim suit
• nail color: Pink!!!
do you:
• lick yourself: no
• whine a lot: sometimes lol
• yell a lot: no .. only when im joking around
• hate a lot of people: no, thats mean lol
• have too many friends: how can u ask that... Friend are fiends,.... quality not quantity
• want to die: no.
• have a bf/gf: no..Im lookin... lol
• wear dark colors: yp.. slenderizing
• dye your hair: just did it..
have you ever:
• kissed someone: yeah
• gotten drunk: hmmmm lol
• worn rainbow: yp
• talked on the phone for over 3 hours: yeah
• left the country: yeah canada
• had a party with over 30 people: yes
• taken nude pictures: lol with a towel on ... hahah
• stolen something: yea but i felt so bad i left the money on the counter,.... so no lol
• caught something on fire: ohh yea a peice of paper
• cheated on someone: no
• wanted to cheat on someone: actually YES i know i know sounds bad but i did....
• asked someone out: no thats a guys job
• had a dream, then the next day it happens: OMG YES!!!
Last person:
• you touched: my mom???
• you talked to: my mom yet again
• you hugged: my puppy lol chloe
• you kissed: ohhh wow... lol depends hahah oh boy that sounds bad
• you instant messaged: Alex!!!
• who broke your heart: a kid a few days/weeks ago lol boys lol
Info about yourself:
• what is your birth name? Cristy A. Ratliff
• how tall are you?: 5'5 and a quarter
• brothers/sisters?: Kelly, Alissa, Jason
• job?: unemployed ... unless u call babysitting.. lol
In the last 48 hours have you:
• cried?: yes
• missed someone?: yeah
• yelled at someone?: no
• changed your underwear?: umm YEAH!!!
• drove somewhere?: nope lol
• been online?: yes
• smiled?: yes
• had sex?: no
• kissed someone?: hmm dont think so
• hugged someone?: yeah
• last thing you ate?: nacho
• talked to an ugly person?: Craig... lol jp jp jp jp nooo way man
Have you ever:
• been in love: yes
• been in trouble with the police?: thanks ange and craig
• hit someone?: craig...
• broke something? nope
• betrayed a friend?: Come on every girl has...
• played strip poker?: no
• skipped school?: yp
• shot a gun?: no
• broke something important?: im sure i have
• smoked weed?: noo!!!
Okay, last questions:
• what is sitting next to you?: printer, TV
• favorite sport?: DANCE!!!
• been in a plane?: yes , and on the 6th also
• killed someone? Heck no!!!
• slept during class?: ok 1 time i felt soo bad
• what time is it now?: 11:29 |
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| 10:53pm 01/07/2005 |
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mood:  stressed music: Dont Cha
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Ahhhh Its almost the 4th of july and i dont know what im doing.. i think im getting peolpe together and watching fireworks... I dont really care what we do as long as i see fireworks.. I LOVE FIREWORKS>>>!!!! hmmmmm
So its comming up senior pics r comming.. Im soo scared everything isnt going to work out.. ehhh.. we r paying all this money and watch i picked a bad place.. i still have to find what im doing with hair. makeup. jewlery. shoes..... ahhhhhhh soo much and to top it off... kelly cant get her pix taken with me... she cant get time off of work.. the only thing that really matters... it sux,... now i dont know i might not get my pics taken whith anyone.. ahhhhhh im going scream...
The day after my pix im flying into Maryland for a week... its going to be so much fun but im flying alone... i have so much to pack. im going for a whole week.. ehhh
So much to do... i need to see fireworks so i can settle down.. hahah i get my nails done on sun tho... yay for nails... talk to ya later...
Im outy!!! |
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| 12:10am 24/06/2005 |
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mood: cranky music: good kind of music
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OMG...
Im sooo burned.. it hurts soo bad.. my face is a red lobster.. eeee lol its reb... and it burns... I have put on vitamin E gel.(ALOE) like 10 time in the past 5 mins... oh boy and they exspect me to lay out tomorrow they r on drugs lol...
So it was a sad day for the pistons... they tried their best and that is all we can ask of them... maybe next year...
***Go pistons!!!**** Oh no that means i owe my grampa a doughnut.. lol oh well i didnt need it anyways... lol |
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| yay im back |
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| 02:51pm 01/06/2005 |
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mood:  cheerful music: none today
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So wow i havnt written in my journal in a very very long time... I guess we can blame it on hw and myspace...
I had an awsome weekend(except the dash in my toe and the retard person who called my friend from drug ... ok can u say stupid) but yea we had fun...
This week is hell week its the week befor finals.. pumping a shit load of info in my head befor the test... oh that suxed I wrote 2 papers and a long butt project and whoa i was proud... yet i never make it to the honors assembly.. that stinks but its kewl im fine with out it... well im going to go do hw before i babysit...
***Smooches*** |
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| my day:by Cristy R lol |
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| 10:41pm 11/05/2005 |
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mood: chipper music: When the stars go blue:one tree hill
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Well my day was ok.. I went to school drove around with my grandma to help her shop with her bad arm.. then came home ate and went shopping. I got a pair of capris and a very hot pink tank... im beating myself up tho for not getting the shirt for over it... hmmm i think im going to go back... and then i got stuff for my scrapbook.. im doing one for all my school dances i have been too isnt it sweet.. yea its alllll pink... lol
So that was my day... sweet huh??? lol heck yes...
Oh and stephen thanks so much for saying what u did, it really ment a lot to me... ill take that under concideration... <- hmmm |
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| BLa bla |
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| 10:46pm 09/05/2005 |
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mood: Shitty music: Justin Timeberlake, But you didnt say you were sorry
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Life.. hmm well what can i say about that...
It suckes... plane and simly...
Some people are blind while the others are looking to hard. in my case... well i dunno in some1eles case they r blind. blind to see what is really going on... I cant even beleive u blamed it on what happened on fri. ur crazy. it has to do with u and only u... grrrrufff.. |
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| Why do i feel like this |
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| 11:02pm 08/05/2005 |
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mood: crushed music: Mariah Carey, we belong together.
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Why do i feel like this... i wanna cry but i cant exsactly put my finger on y.... I had an god weekend.. so i think...
Fri i onely went to 2 classes and then I came home went to Kaylas brothers craig's Baseball game for a little bit... then went to a drive in with the fellas... they got gum stuck in my hair.. cried a little but got throught it.. fell asleep during the second movie. Sat i was soo tired i slet like the whole day and now on sun we went up north to my neices baptism. lol she was super cute lol.. but yea
Now i feel like there is still something missing.. but i dont know what,... i wanna cry cause i know but i dont want think like that... people im about to go crazy.. ha well im jug toing to sleep on it and hope for a better day... |
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| thats hot dog |
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| 10:13pm 02/05/2005 |
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mood: chipper music: the lime in da coconut
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so yea i havnt written in here in a while so i thought i would give it a shot... lol alls i really have to say is...
Craig i sooo kicked your butt wrestling.. i got some major pointage and i gave him a bloody nose ... lol thats hott.. lol ewwwwwwwwwww Oh it was really fun tho.. hahahhah until his gf called i felt bad because i said stuff that wasnt true and i think i got him in trouble lol... oops... sry danielle!!!
But yes school is crazy right now and i have to work hard to get everything done and it to turn out and still have my fun.. who would of thunk that... hmmmm lol talk to yas later |
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| 08:44pm 18/04/2005 |
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mood:  sick music: Nothing!!!
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Why is life so damn unfair. why does bad stuff happen to decent people... or in better terms why does shitty stuff happen to me and my family. Life really is a bitch and then u die. I once again learned that today. Grrrrr y y y soooo many questions.... |
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| 11:30pm 13/04/2005 |
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mood:  bouncy music: Girlfight
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Ok people.... listen up and listen good...
STOP BEING SO DARN CONFUSING>... lol
think about that and come up with an understanding... ok
***SMOOCHES*** |
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